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Perhaps it is a fine idea to have the women close but not too close. Presumably, over there they supress their desired, but I am of a generation that believes in the necessity of satisfying oneself.
Maybe; but I have lost my relish for living. I am apathetic and most of the time want nothing, except to understand why there hasn’t been more happiness there. Is it like this for everyone? Is this all you get? Is this the most there could be?
In the morning I will be gone.
It is my yearning for more life that has done this, and we are yearning creatures, a bag of insistent wants.

—Intimacy.
Hanif Kureishi.